A little one...

I am desiring a little one, so tiny and sweet, smelling of baby bath soap, a soft fuzzy head to cuddle under my chin, fingers and toes so tiny.
With a birthday fast approaching, okay in 4 months, I am feeling time ticking away at me. But, the cost of in-vetro again... with college to pay for in 4 years for the oldest and my husband already working 2 jobs is it selfish? I know he would love another to cuddle and snuggle and love too, but oh the cost...
But oh the pull of our family not being complete yet and the feeling that there is another child wanting to call us their family. Do we pray and go on faith that $ will work out as somehow it always does?
Justin wants a little one too, he is saving toys and clothes for a new brother - not a sister mind you, just a brother. Nic thinks Justin is enough for him.
Oh, a little one so tiny and sweet, cute little blue booties or my fondest desire pink bows, white lace and black patent leather shoes, someone to share my barbies and my Mandy doll with, to laugh and giggle over boys with...